This is my newest drawing. It shows a man playing a harp, with lightning bearing down on him and his companion. Umbrellas have long been a symbol in my artwork, representing shelter, and also depression and hidden thoughts.
I have this idea that music can bring down the wrath of God on a musician, and it is a beautiful thing. The musician plays bravely on, even under the wrath of lightning.
Black clouds are rare in my drawings, but in this represent the storm at present, and the foreboding. There is power in nature, but also beauty even in its wrath.
Everything is eternal in music, and fear nothing, when you create
I believe if there is a heaven, it is vast. One aspect of heaven would look like this to me, just sitting quietly with a close friend, discussing or contemplating a book.
The goth is a sort of guardian of heaven, we all imagine what we relate to. A guardian would probably be sent to me, in the form of someone i could relate to. He would be it, the man in the drawing.
This drawing also symbolises what it means to be alone. I am alone, and I feel I will always be alone.
the purple pink background was carefully chosen. I searched long and hard for just the right colour pastel to represent the background. the colour had to be matching to what I saw when I had schizophrenia. It had to be exact. Down to the pink swirls mixed it.
I love this drawing, it brings me peace. I hope it brings you peace.
The meeting of three friends is from the imaginary life of my mind. What it would be like to be friends with Leonardo Da Vinci and God. Here in this drawing Leonardo Da Vinci, God and the representation of a girl reach out their hands in a symbol of trust.
The lightning refers to the life force of the creator. In this case the lightning is purple, representing intuition. Sometimes I use blue lightning to represent an awakening or realization or spirit.
I have a deep interest in the Underworld, and relate to it. Hades Persephone and Charon the ferryman are all figures that I hold close to my heart. When asked what my ideal job would be, I would probably say it is sailing the seven seas on The Flying Dutchman collecting souls.
Here in this picture I am seen to be collecting souls with Charon, not judging them. I don’t like to judge other people or other souls. I believe everyone has a unique path. I think that in future I will explore the role of Hades, but for now I am closer to Charon. I believe Hades and Charon to be listeners of the dead, to hear their concerns, and give their guidance.
Storm clouds or grey clouds in artwork are supposed to represent depression in an artist, make of it what you will. Sometimes I am depressed, sometimes just contemplative.
I think the souls floating around Charon and me are really beautiful, just finding their way. Charon is guiding them to the land of the dead.
I have never seen heaven, but in my mind there exists a world with three suns where God resides. In my mind, I sometimes imagine what it would be like to have conversations with Leonardo Da Vinci or talk to him in the afterlife. This is an artwork showing this gentle thought.
It is an interpretation, the man has his beard covering his mouth, which represents a hidden or secret silence. The girl is a self portrait represented a sphinx.
I also had a vision during schizophrenia while The Cure was playing. I looked at the white wall in front of me, and saw the gates of heaven open. I touched the wall, but I couldn’t reach the gates.
This is the gates of heaven guarded by goths. One of the goths is burning incense waiting patiently, a guardian who reminds of Sandman leans on the gates, and someone prepares to enter the gates of heaven.
While the gates of heaven are open to all, this is just my interpretation of what it feels like if maybe a goth went to heaven.
I had a vision during a bout of schizophrenia. I was in a huge hall with breeze blowing over long purple silk curtains, they were see through. A man who reminded me of the singer from The Jesus and Mary Chain was playing the guitar by himself, looking down. I do not truly know who the man was, but i felt lost and found when he looked at me, and this is an artistic interpretation of what I saw.
Just a surreal picture of the Goth playing with the three moons. In my world there are three planets in the sky, three suns and three moons. I suppose the guardian goth is also guardian of the night, or night thoughts to me.
Paul my friend commented to me that he seemed to be a guardian of Goths. Which i agreed. The truth is though, that I met a man walking down the street with a small suitcase, he looked exactly like this, tall and bony, with big hair. He smiled at me and I smiled back, I have never forgotten his friendliness, and I admire him for it.
The guardian goth lives in my mind, staring out a stained glass window, contemplating, protecting goths and their dreams.
The pied piper has lived in my imagination for as long as i remember. i love the story of the pied piper who played his pipe and lured children away to the mountains where they disappeared and were never found.
The pied piper represents the power of art and music to draw the viewer away into another world. Sometimes I feel as if i am from a different world, and the pied piper always reminds me of that.
I am not immune to the siren call of the pied piper, wherever he may lead me.