Cycling with angels

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This is an interesting drawing to me, it shows an idea that there are beings out there that transcend different levels of consciousness.

The first is an archangel, and an enlightened man, and an angel behind him. Different beings with different responsibilities and different levels of spirituality.

None is more powerful than the other, and they cycle together or work together. Just my impression of what people talk about. I think the blue angel on the back of the bicycle is like the guardian angel.

The archangel leads the way, but is helped by an enlightened being. everyone working together.

Hermit reaches for the moon

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I don’t know sometimes if this man that appears in my drawing is a hermit or homeless. but he travels to places in my mind that are lurking deep in my subconscious.

This is the image of the hermit reaching for the moon. There is something very satisfying about drawing this, because i know i have always wanted to touch the moon, to hold it in my hands, to rest my face against it.


Soul from feet

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This is an artwork portraying what people say happens when you dream or die, your soul leaves through your feet. Apparently its better if you leave through your feet rather than your soul passing from your head.

This image shows a woman dreaming, and a guide gently guiding her soul. Angels come to aid as well, and it feels like how i feel before i sleep. Sometimes i feel as if i hear an angel whisper in my ear, and i feel guided.


Dream weaver

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When I had schizophrenia I visualized in my mind that I was walking into a great hall, the floors were plain cement and deep magenta coloured silk curtains were blowing in the breeze, obscuring the person behind them. When i approached, it was someone I loved, playing the guitar, he had wild teased up hair and he kept calling me.

This is one of many drawings of that experience, my impression of the person that I saw. Its somehow poetic, and a bit darker. the person in my visualization was more simple, in black t shirt and jeans.

A magician riding the three headed unicorn

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I drew a green three headed unicorn while i had schizophrenia. I was always fascinated by it and wondered why i drew it. It was like one of those animal totems the native americans are talking about. Well this is mine, the three headed unicorn.

I think there is a magician inside of me, to do art feels like magic.

Someone commented that its a symbol from the underworld, but i don’t feel thats true, i don’t see why three headed unicorns can’t exist in the higher realms too.

I was afraid to draw a three headed unicorn at first, i felt judged, but after I drew it i realized how silly i had been. It is beautiful.

Door with vines

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I love doors and windows and mirrors, anything that reflects someones own soul.

I drew this unexpectedly and it felt like a door had opened for me, my worked changed and seemed more peaceful. I felt the presence of something angelic and green leaves and vines twining themselves around the door.

Cats by a spiritual fire

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A long while back when i suffered from a bout of schizophrenia, i went to an art shop and bought a mask that I thought was the face of God. I was strange like that.

That is the mask at the top of the picture in the drawing.

The cats symbolise secrets and stealth to me, and I feel that secrets are always revealed around a fireplace. This is my secret fire, the fire in my heart, and cats lurk around it.


First collage

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This is my first collage, I’ve never really done one before. I was terrified of it at first, but as i looked over the details more and more, i grew over to appreciate and love it.

the idea behind it was that there were three stories tied into one. the strange black figures in the work represent how i feel. the man walking out of the beach is typical of feeling watched, but somehow having the confidence to walk on water.

the three figures walking on a silver gilded or carved plate, represents time travel or transcending boundaries with more than one point of view at a time.

Lastly, but not least I love mirrors. I love drawing people looking into mirrors. You always wonder what they see. The lady in the black cloak is displaced. Even in her family, she feels displaced. The colourful image behind the missing spectre of the woman is actually a tarot card image of the hermit. It reminds me slightly of Emily Dickinson

The combination of the renaissance woman and the unicorn represents freedom, freedom to express darkness.

The man hiding on the table represents being in view or being watched, i can be paranoid. The dark figure represents death, or being visited by death. A figure i have seen from time to time while being in bed in the past.

I think that’s all 🙂 thank you for reading. Hope you enjoy the collage, I made it a bit bigger so you can see the details.

Playing music to the wrath of God

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This is my newest drawing. It shows a man playing a harp, with lightning bearing down on him and his companion. Umbrellas have long been a symbol in my artwork, representing shelter, and also depression and hidden thoughts.

I have this idea that music can bring down the wrath of God on a musician, and it is a beautiful thing. The musician plays bravely on, even under the wrath of lightning.

Black clouds are rare in my drawings, but in this represent the storm at present, and the foreboding. There is power in nature, but also beauty even in its wrath.

Everything is eternal in music, and fear nothing, when you create



In heaven with a friend

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I believe if there is a heaven, it is vast. One aspect of heaven would look like this to me, just sitting quietly with a close friend, discussing or contemplating a book.

The goth is a sort of guardian of heaven, we all imagine what we relate to. A guardian would probably be sent to me, in the form of someone i could relate to. He would be it, the man in the drawing.

This drawing also symbolises what it means to be alone. I am alone, and I feel I will always be alone.

the purple pink background was carefully chosen. I searched long and hard for just the right colour pastel to represent the background. the colour had to be matching to what I saw when I had schizophrenia. It had to be exact. Down to the pink swirls mixed it.

I love this drawing, it brings me peace. I hope it brings you peace.